The Air is Cooling Down

September has welcomed in some cool weather already, and I don't know how to feel about it. I don't want to be excited for beautiful, crisp, glorious-smelling Autumn winds, because the only thing they mean is that  bitter, cruel, and painfully long Winter is knocking on the door.
However, I do love sweaters. So being able to wear them is great, but weighing sweaters, or sun and fun and outside times on a scale is pretty lopsided for me. My heart will always lie with Summer.

But the seasons gotta change.

Change is great, if it's purposeful and happy, but sometimes it's not.
I've never been one to change due to external factors. People influence people always, but a person should never let another person cause them to change in negative ways. Being dragged down by others, especially friends, is really hard to deal with, because most of the time you don't notice the damage until it's done. And then how do you correct it? Or do you not. Do you justify it away? Do you forget that you were ever different?
It happens. But keeping priorities straight is so necessary, even though it seems like one of the hardest things to do, especially at college. There is so much going on all the time, in every sense, and if you can just grab onto a few things at once, you're doing well. But which things do you choose?

I know who I am, or at least I know who I want to be, and I know that I want to live that out. So many of my conflicting ideas and thoughts have intersected to create a complex diagram of who I define myself as. I confuse myself all the time, while maintaining surety in some sort of an ultimate goal, even if it is semi-generic at this point. My spontaneous nature calls for drastic actions and absurd adventures at times, but I can't get lost in the side-show. I am at one of the climaxes of my life this year with graduation from college, I don't really feel like losing myself now. I want to do life right.

First things first: this paper.

Song of the Day: Change the World- Eric Clapton---it will change your world.